I miss my Poppa today. I was at the acupuncturist office today, he is probably in his mid/late 70's and he is a truly sweet man and probably a really good Grandfather. He made a little joke about the needles, when I laughed he did that I-got-your-nose thing to me and it made me miss Poppa and sad that Rob's father had died since he was my last chance for a father/grandfather figure.

Poppa died 4 years ago next week and I doubt there was a better man that ever lived. I recently inherited one of Grandma's furs that Poppa gave her. For years, I have loved her furs and have worn them around the house during summers in the Hamptons and actually having one of her furs feels like a direct connection to them.

When we got married we received their silver and it is magnificent but I have no recollection of ever using it. I do recollect going to the drug store in Grandma's furs when the weather was really not that cold. The coat smells like her and has her name embroidered in it so every time I wear it, I will think of my grandparents. But, right now I miss my Poppa.

I am packing for yet another trip to the Outer Banks. This one will be for a full week with friends. Now that the kitchen renovation stress is behind me I can really relax at the beach and not be freaked out by how much work needs to be done and worry that it's never going to get done.

G was in town last week with Pat which was cool since he rarely makes it out here, we went to Joss and got one of those boats that always catches your attention while you are waiting for a table.

I have been totally uninspired at work, I do what I need to but my heart is totally not in it. Last week I had my tarot cards read and she said that I needed to find a job that expresses my creativity and suggested event planning. The other cool thing she saw was children, she said there were a lot of spirits vying to be our kids. Apparently Rob and I are very attractive to nebulous spirit children out there and she thought we would be pregnant in 3 months. Very cool, especially since all I had told her before the reading was my first name. Not sure how I feel about event planning but the sooner we get pregnant the sooner I can quit this job.