James has recently been 'talking' up a storm. His adorable little voice reminds me of cookie monster. His cousin was in town, I refer to him as the loud one and she is the quiet one, he greeter her with a loud cookie monster roar and alarmed her to the point of tears. He's all boy and all mouth. I suppose this will be a theme for the next 10 + years.

Despite the rough start, the cousins has such a fantastic time. James was in a great mood the entire time she was here. This boy needs a sibling in the worst way. We'll start working on it soon.

First things first, I have been thinking of weaning James for the past month. I like having the secret weapon in case of emergencies and I can't really think of any good reason to stop breast feeding him but I keep thinking of weaning him anyway. Pretty odd.

He has been taking swim lessons, well, it's actually more like floating in a heated pool and singing the hokey pokey. James looooooooooooooves it, like you couldn't tell from the photo.

I'm back, James is now 7 months old and I finally enjoy being a mom. The antidepressants helped a lot, I had a pretty serious case of postpartum depression. The scariest part of that is I had crazy irrational thoughts and they seemed rational. That scared me a lot.

But that is over and James now sleeps from 6:30 pm to 5:30 or 6 in the morning. It's a bit too early for me but I looooooooove not getting up at 10 pm, midnight, 2 am, and 6 am. Now that I am getting more then 5 hours of sleep in a row I have started running and taking pilates and am starting to drop the extra weight.

It's so nice to feel normal again and it's so sweet to be mother to James. I feel so confident, it's a feeling of great accomplishment, even stronger then runnign the marathon. I feel bulletproof and invincible.

What a happy boy he has turned out to be! FINALLY!

I suppose I should read my recent posts before I start yet another one with the roller coaster ride line. Let's just say I have been sleep deprived for the past 3 months.

Last night he slept like a champ and with each day that passes he does better and better. Christmas is going to be a blast, I can't wait to get the tree up this weekend.

The presents I ordered for James are arriving, I have done all my shopping for him on line since it's pretty damn hard to find toys NOT made in China.

Rob and I are not getting each other presents this year since getting out and doing some shopping has been close to impossible. At first I thought I would feel a bit gypped about not getting anything, but with Christmas a little over a week away, I feel absolutely no stress. I feel very calm. How amazing is that?

Here is a picture of my little elf.